happy birthday..:)

back in 1986,a boy was born in port dickson..raised up in a family with full of love and joy in it..as time passes by,he grew with his family love..many things come in his life,good and bad..but all that thing develops his character..he used to get slap by his parent,sisters..and he also has tasted the water hose..it really painful..and not becoz of it,he could not be as he is now..not very successful but its enough for him to be a good person..after 24 years,he live with a life full of shit..he don't give a shit of his life becoz all the things happen is written..he still can't figure it out..what is the reason?live among successful friends and family pressure him a bit..at his age of 23,he found some one he really care of..he is lucky becoz he got a girl of his dream that really understand him..but after the incident,he keep blaming himself..everything became so awkward..she made a surprise party for him but he still feel the awkwardness between them.. everything changed..how long will it be like this..there's a long way to go for them..there's many things out there waiting for them..but his love to her will never fade away..let the time heal everything..thanks for everything..

at last..:)

at last,i'm out of the world of sorrow..these 3 days will always be remembered as a start for a new beginning of a meaningful epic..she's come back from her coldness to the warmness that i'm hoping before..i will never take her for granted anymore..i will do my best fro the sake of 2 of us..i learnt a lesson that i could't get it anywhere else..she's the one for me..the one and only..she will never be replace..i don't want to repeat a same mistake again..i promise to myself,  i will make a big changes to myself..it's for my own good.."abg pnah x pikir perasaan syg" will be the line that inspired me to become a new me..now i can smile seeing her smile..i always wanted to hold her hand,stare her right to her eyes and say..i will love u for the rest of my life..

3rd day of sorrow..

it seems like an endless day of sorrow..my heart continue to swell as the time pass by..damn it hurt..i cannot bear this anymore..i miss her so much since the 1st day of sorrow..i couldn't imagine if i lost her forever..i already feel like hell even i lost her for only one day..nothing from her..only the coldness of her..maybe this will teach me a valuable lesson,and actually,lesson learnt from the beginning of this tragic epic..i wonder when this gonna end..and i also wondering what will be happening at the end of the epic..for any other story,its all coming toward a happy ending..hope that it will turn out as those stories..but the future is not for us to foresee,to predict,to change..give her a little more time..let her made her own wisely-perhaps decision..i'm not perfect, i'm nobody, i blame my self for everything..hope its not the end of everything although it crossed my mind a couple of time and there are possibilities of this shit become reality..i hope not,i wish not,i pray to god..i cant afford to loose her..i love her..from the bottom of my filthy swollen little heart.. :(

:(

its really hurt..damn its killing me softly..i have never felt this way before..i know i'm wrong..i felt so terrible right now..i'm so alone..i wonder what she's doing right now..is she ok or not..one thing for sure,she still hating me..poor me,making a stupid thing without considering all the consequences..i hope she will forgive for what that i've done..i still love her..i really do love her..if only she knows how much i love her.. i want to turn back time,i wish i could..dear god,the only thing i ask of you is to hold her when i'm not around,when i'm much too far away..