3rd day of sorrow..

it seems like an endless day of sorrow..my heart continue to swell as the time pass by..damn it hurt..i cannot bear this anymore..i miss her so much since the 1st day of sorrow..i couldn't imagine if i lost her forever..i already feel like hell even i lost her for only one day..nothing from her..only the coldness of her..maybe this will teach me a valuable lesson,and actually,lesson learnt from the beginning of this tragic epic..i wonder when this gonna end..and i also wondering what will be happening at the end of the epic..for any other story,its all coming toward a happy ending..hope that it will turn out as those stories..but the future is not for us to foresee,to predict,to change..give her a little more time..let her made her own wisely-perhaps decision..i'm not perfect, i'm nobody, i blame my self for everything..hope its not the end of everything although it crossed my mind a couple of time and there are possibilities of this shit become reality..i hope not,i wish not,i pray to god..i cant afford to loose her..i love her..from the bottom of my filthy swollen little heart.. :(